rants that can't be voiced out anywhere else but here it feels weird having to say that i'm not a netballer anymore, but it kind of feels good to be a full time dancer again. i mean it's not confirmed yet, but more or less it kind of is. i'm really sorry to all the netballers if i have like made you feel betrayed ( i mean, that's what MC said) i'm really sorry, i miss you guys alrdy. no more crazy fun times, no more encouragement for one another, no more pacing with pacer (i'm really sorry renee, i can't be your pacer anymore) & alot more i guess. words can't exactly describe how i'm feeling, but i guess it's all very messed up. i dont' know if i'm going to fit into dance but i'll try. i dont' know what's the outcome going to be, but i know i'll miss either one of them when i'm in either one of the cca. which means to say that i'm very much confused. but having to think of the fact that i could have represented the school for netball, my heart just aches. i dont' know why. but even if the fact that i wont' play, but justbeing there for each & everyone of you guys for the tournament, it makes me feel sad too. it's just that maybe the trgs have made me so comfortable with you guys, & not even a month, i alrdy feel like an outsider. i dont' know what to say, btu i know you guys won't dao me, definitely not the sec2s, but it's just that i feel weird all together. i hope joining dance would make me feel better, and i really want to get into dance. i really want to dance. but if i can't fit it, i'll miss the netballers even more than ever. i really will. i didn't want to go for cca day, cause i dont' have like a cca to exactly belong to. so i would rather not go. i really feels weird. having to say that i'm not a netballer anymore. but no matter what happens, just so you guys know that, when you're playing for the nationals, 1st & 2nd place, i'll be there CHEERING MY LUNGS OUT FOR YOU GUYS. i want to go support you guys at every match, but i wont' want to see coach though. i'll pray for you guys though. i love you all the netballers who have made sec1 so nice. i love you all so much. thank you seniors too. i love you all so much<3